There comes a time, once every few years, or perhaps once in a lifetime, when one has to pause, look around, look behind & look into the future. Think of all that has gone by, what could have been & what is. Ponder, contemplate & reassess.

Was it worth it? Will it be worth it? Did I do justice to myself & my abilities? Were expectations, mine & others', lived up to?

It could have been better ..... but then, it could have been a lot worse.

Will this be it or can the game be raised to another level? What if it is? What's wrong with how it is now?

The mind boggles ..... the questioner is the best answerer. Or is he?